feelings.events.memories

picture of the season so far.

dinner and afters. BBQ in a condo, filled with laughter, water, coke and sprite. stingray and chicken wings, bee hoon and crazy jokes. what is missing? at the end of a 1.5hour train ride home, is this all there is to life?

conversations i enjoyed. fun and games, talking about years gone by (how old some of us were), how bemused some of the young ones were, some oblivious, some just plain dandy. conversations were good, not fantastic, but i guess that is how things really are when you are 17 or 18 (i don't remember doing such things when i was that age) things were just more about fun and what you want then anything else, and i don't know, perhaps things have changed on my end, or maybe some of my peers haven't changed. or maybe. i just don't know anymore.

i can't imagine what my life would be like if i did not have Jesus in my life. a life still dedicated to chasing grades, chasing girls, chasing money and i don't know what else. not that i do not struggle with sin anymore, but i would be completely and utterly numb towards it. i can't imagine; perhaps that was His plan all along, slowly drawing me to Himself. but yet, as i spend this night with this bunch of 'kids', experience tells me that life will lure them to its depths, the devil will tempt them with all His might and power, to a world that seems too good to be true, and even attainable a lot of the time. i'm afraid, as i pray. i'm terrified. whilst trusting in God to work to His own good pleasure, i'm scared, having seen terrible results, and longing for these fledglings to keep to the fold.

PE (and GE, for good measure)

the recently concluded presidential elections has shown me just how big a factor emotions play a factor in politics. this being my first elections, and honestly the first elections where there was so much noise about elections (no doubt due to social media), i was keen to find out what this whole election thing was all about.

i think that in my pragmatic capacity, it was more than just pure fantasy that the electorate will vote based on logic. the way the votes swung, especially during PE, was a clear indication about how people just get, disgruntled with the ruling party for their own little discomforts, not that the ruling party is doing a fantabulous job, but that they must vote for opposition candidates that can serve the 'opposition' role effectively. in any case, the electorate (as well as the constitution) has spoke, no point crying over split milk. this system is as fair as it could be, having a couple of days of run repeated PE (including counting and all) would be something not even the most hard-line of opposition supporters would want.

my view: change, if it makes things better, is good.

football, money and madness.

united beat arsenal 8-2 last night. pity the gunners, they weren't outclassed per se. they were just out-experienced, plus 4 goals of sheer quality. despite their convincing two results, beating spurs 3-0 at home and arsenal 8-2 at home, the performance that citeh put out at white hart lane over a full strength spurs is very, very scary indeed. don't know how to point a finger at the situation, i don't think that you can really count on this united performance (aside from getting one over their arch-rivals). the arsenal defending was just shambolic at large parts. the only team that got a shorter straw this weekend is my dear blackburn (missing two penalties only to lose at the death to a non-penalty:/ at least arsenal have got the OT fixture out of their calendar. i remember 7-1 last year. oh the horror.) football wise, i'm just looking forward to the manchester derby. at the rate chelsea are going, they are not going to restore any london pride this campaign. but the blue-red feud is one to watch this season.

on another (less bitter, haha) note, i must say that i am half beginning to lose interest in the followings of all this madness. since visiting the UK, and reading the news (especially united's IPO in singapore. yay to dumb more dumb supporter money flow), the gulf between the teams in the league just bears stupidity at times. real, barca, united, city, chelsea, pool? they should just go and set up a european super league, leaving the rest in their wake and their scouts watching games waiting to snap up young talent with wages beyond their wildest dreams. this is definitely not what football used to be 10-20 years ago. the sight of football today, the way that money drives the industry, the lack of loyalty (even amidst the high quality of stunning football on display), leaves the ardent fan sick to the stomach.

i'm sticking to my blackburn rovers til i die (or even till they hit league 2 at this rate).

i love the beautiful game, i hate the way money is ruining everything. much like sin. gospel reminders.